It hurts... It just hurts so much...

It hurts... It really does hurt... And it hurts all the more when you try to be kind... I can't recover as quickly as you do... not after being smashed into a hundred thousand pieces... I can't seem to put myself back together properly this time... I just... It just hurts so badly... These tears won't stop coming... I just want to go to sleep and never wake up... honestly, truthfully, and seriously... It just... hurts so much when you're kind... or when you're trying to be kind... It's like a wound reacting to a knife... I just... It just hurts so bad... And there is no one who can help me, no one who i can say it out entirely, truthfully and totally to... No one...